. . . but I am experiencing a sense of contentment and calm that I haven't felt in the entire year and a half I've been back in NO. I'm still suffering from a bit of motivation lack, but nothing compared to the previous 16-17 months. The really puzzling part is that I have no idea as to its basis -- read = how would I be able to get back to this shiny, happy place if depression were to come creeping back into my neighborhood?
I don't think it is merely the abundance of sunshine and mild weather. Nor do I think it is dependent on happy baby energy.
The contentedness and peacefulness are not unmarred -- I had a meltdown last week when the elevator broke down (AGAIN!) as I was trying to leave the office, and I started crying yesterday evening for no apparent reason (and I'm beginning to suspect that bout wasn't ME, i.e., I think I might have been feeling someone else).
It's quite strange -- but I'm probably over-analyzing. Need to enjoy the ride and see where it takes me.
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